how many times have you said something and you don't ever know if u mean it?
how many laughs have u shared because its so much easier to act than figure out what u feel?
*just put everything behind and smile :)*

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

A wish

Setiap patah kata...

Diiring deras air mata...

I'm sorry I hurt your feeling... Its happened without intention.

For the last two weeks, I cry for you. I learn to heal myself. But its hurt. Its been a while since I cry like this.

I wish I can let you go. I really wish I can leave this place.


Saturday, November 24, 2012

Rindu II

aku cuma rindu.

rindu pada apa atau siapa
aku sendiri pun keliru.

Aku cuma rindu
hati ini rindu
pada yang belum ada mungkin...

pada lelaki jauh
yang sepertinya masih tidak ketemu
jalan menuju pulang.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Thursday, November 1, 2012

choose me to be happy, can i?

Try to act cool
try to stay strong
keep a smile on my face.

but the truth always there
haunting me...

my own sadness
i feel so hopeless
too pathetic
how can i been living like this
for such a long term.

i just want to be happy
thats the only thing i want
to be happy...

Wednesday, October 31, 2012


semalam seperti mimpi
segalanya seperti mimpi...

walau bagaimana kita elak
kalau ditakdir tuhan sebegitu
tiada apa yang terhalang.

dalam sedih ada gembira
dalam tangis ada tawa
dalam penyesalan terlindung rahmat tuhan yang paling dalam.

Ya Rabb kurniakan aku Qalbun syakirun, kurniakan aku hati yang sentiasa bersyukur. Ameen.

'So verily, with the hardship there is relief; verily, with the hardship there is relief'. 94:5-6

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

a phase

To see someone you used to love
loving someone you care...

how is it should i react?
how am i suppose to say?
should i congrutulate both of you
and pray for your happiness?

in many people you choose her
in many people thats what Allah destine you...

should i be angry for that?
do i have a right to be angry?

i should accept it right? that whats i should do right?

but to be your friend and to act normal will hurt 
me so much...

so please understand me for once
dont bother to tell me anything
dont bother to connect with me in any way...

just for the moment i'm begging you...
just for this time because it hurt me so bad
when you act like nothing ever happened between us.

Monday, October 29, 2012


I dont want to hate you Or loving you... I just dont want you to be in my heart Neither my mind. Please just disappear, i dont wanna know anything about you!